During my time in Rhodes, I spent a lot of time reflecting on the relationship that I have with myself and I deduced that in all honesty it isn’t always a very good one. I also deduced that it is probably about time that I did.
Photography by Paul Dickenson at the Esperos Village Rhodes | Bikini by Primark | Sunglasses by Ray-Ban
Although on the whole I am happy with who I am, I do feel as though I limit and hold myself back simply because I don’t possess much self belief. I have always had a massive fear of swimming because I didn’t think I was very good at it, after all I can only do breaststroke. But last month I swam 750m in the pool for charity, I swam in the open water on holiday comfortably and I didn’t die in the water park. Why? Because actually I’m not that bad at swimming, I’ve just told myself I am for so long I’d started to believe it.
Instead of treading myself down I want to build myself up, I want to turn that from upside down and change my mindset to think more positively. I’m going to accept myself for who and what I am, and I’m going to work on being the best version of that that I can be.
I am who I am today because of that determined little streak that I keep hidden deep within me, not because of what I can or can’t do in life. Its often the things that you can’t see that make you who you are and sometimes that can possibly make these traits harder to appreciate. I want to appreciate those traits in me that others love and work on those they loathe as opposed to worrying about my hair and makeup all the time. Yes straightening my hair and slapping on the makeup makes me feel a little better about myself but it isn’t what draws people to me.
I have learnt to accept that I will never be super skinny and that instead of chasing the impossible I should chase things that are … My determined nature makes lifting weights perfect for me because I can constantly challenge myself. I have accepted that my body type is not an imperfection, it isn’t a barrier to progress and have started to work with it as opposed to against it.
During this time of change I won’t be afraid to remove or focus less on those people that don’t do anything for me anymore, that don’t empower me or encourage me to be the best version of me that I have the potential to be. For too long I have listened to those that have tried to hold me back, discouraged me from challenging myself and prevented me from growing as a person.
Loving & looking after yourself is not selfish or arrogant, it is perfectly ok. If you are happy and content within yourself, then you will pass that onto those around you. Positivity breeds positivity, never forget that.
Have you gone through a similar stage of learning to love yourself?
Let me know below and I’ll catch up with you again soon, until then though x
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