I fully intended to take a few days off from blogging, after my little crisis of confidence over the weekend, and to recharge my batteries a little and take stock of the situation. But being the little worker bee that I am I can’t seem to stay away.. so I guess that’s my answer to the question of should I continue.
As I write this it is Monday evening, the weather is suddenly very Autumnal again after a relatively bright start to the day and I am ready to embrace the colder days, darker nights and all the joys that Autumn holds.
I’ve lit my favourite candles, I’m snuggled up in my favourite PJ’s and I’m looking forward to a nice streak dinner when Paul gets home. Right now life is looking pretty hygge in this house and I couldn’t be happier with how things look and feel. If you caught last weeks newsletter, my recent post may have come as a shock especially after I mentioned feeling in such a good place lately.
After spending the day pondering my future as a blogger and I keep coming back to one point above all others; I love blogging so much and I shouldn’t give up on something that I love and maybe if I shouldn’t give up perhaps I should just slow down a little.
So slow down I will.
In all honesty right now I should be at the gym, I should be spinning my little heart out and lifting some heavy ass weights instead. However, this afternoon my body felt tired and achy and so I decided to have another night off. Over the years I’ve learnt that going to the gym when I feel like this just doesn’t work for me – it disheartens me, I get easily distracted and in the end it is a pointless exercise (pardon the pun) and so I decided to come home and potter instead.
It’s blissful. My WoodWick candle is crackling away and I’ve got my favourite Fleetwood Mac album spinning away on my record player keeping me company … at least something in my life is spinning even if I’m not hey?
Part of slowing down is reducing my commitments away from my blog – namely the ‘FitBunniesChat’ feed on Twitter. I used to love hosting the chats and RT’ing other users on there but I no longer found it an engaging platform on which to network and it began to feel like a chore. I don’t want any part of this experience to feel like a chore, I want it to excite me and make me sparkle. That might sound like a strange thing to say but creating content and features makes me sparkle and that is something that Paul pointed out to me the other day.
I want to get back to those days; the days where i would sit on the bedroom floor for hours at a time, shooting my latest make up hauls on the bedroom windowsill and creating new backdrops to sit behind them. I think this is why I always love taking part in #blogmas so much, because it allows me to be that little bit more creative with my content.
I’m not going to change my schedule, I’m not going to change my content but what I am going to change is me and my approach to blogging. I’m going to take some of my own advice for a change learn to practice a little more of what I preach – to switch off a little more when I need to, to rest a little more if I feel the need and to listen to my mind, body and soul as opposed to just one of the three.
Sometimes we have to think about giving it all up to realise what we have and in this little corner of the internet I have an outlet for my thoughts and feelings, an amazing group of online friends (many of who have become IRL friends) and a fantastic opportunity to showcase my abilities as a writer, creator and dare I say it, an influencer.
So I’m not going to give up, I’m going to slow down. I’m going to have more time living my best life with my laptop in tow, I’m going spend more evenings in with only a candle and my music for company and I’m sure as hell going to spend more time away from it – brunching, lunching and well, munching with those that appreciate everything I do and will always be there for me no matter what.
I always thought that this little corner of the blogosphere would be here for a long time to come and well it might just be.
Do you ever feel like you need to slow down a little? Let me know below and I’ll catch up with you again soon, until then though x
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