Blaze Blogs | Bittersweet Consciousness

In life I try to be a positive little peach. I don’t do it to be annoying, frustrating or to vex other people, it’s just who I am and I hope my blog reflects that. But it isn’t all rainbows and unicorns all of the time.

Today has been one of those days.

When you read this I will be flat out on a sunlounger, enjoying the feeling of the sun on my skin and hopefully feeling pretty damn good about who I am and what I have achieved.

However, as I just said today has been one of those days.

One of those days where I feel like an absolute whale. I’m bloated, I feel heavy and I’ve lost all signs of definition and progress and I know it’s my own fault. Last weekend I pressed self-destruct, I drank wine and devoured pizza and I’m paying for it.

So today I feel like I have undone all of the hard work and effort I have put in over the past few weeks and let myself down. I feel disappointed in myself for not sticking out the 12 weeks I promised myself I would, disappointed that as soon as the opportunity arose I jumped off of the wagon and under the bus and disappointed that I failed.

I failed.

As a result of all of the above I have been focusing on all of my bad points today, that stubborn little bit of fat on my inner thighs, that layer of extra fluff over my abs and those not so adorable love handles. I feel a mess.

I fumbled through my class at the gym feeling weak, unhappy and as though I had taken a massive step back when really all I needed to do was talk to someone who understood. Someone that made me realise that that pizza will have no bearing on how I look when I hit the beach in a few days time, that recognises the importance of giving in sometimes to preserve your own sanity and that pointed out that the way I was feeling was more likely to be a sign that I had over worked myself over the last few days in a bif to ditch a few more pounds before my holiday.

So sitting here writing this I feel a little bit better, I’m looking forward to wearing some pretty little dresses and my favourite bikinis, but I wanted to share with you that sometimes you need to be a little bit more conscious of things, see things from a different perspective and actually think things through as opposed to beating yourself up over the tiniest little details. 

Everything happens for a reason x



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